I don't want you to fix it for me. I didn't ask you to. I don't expect it.

[ A pause. ] I can't - deal with -- I can't -- with Ecks, and -- [ God, there it is. There it is, rising in his throat, like bile. He feels like he's going to throw up, and he stops, breath a little harsher. ] I can't. I am -- I am this close to - to --