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[devoutish]

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Alfie like "oh hell i'm Too Tired for this"

[devoutish]

Shall I tell you what I believe, then? I'm asking because if you do not care, I won't bother.

Sorry Alfie, everyone around you is a mess

[aibolition]

Well it would depend on the answer. If you want to tell me to screw right off now I'm not gonna cry about it. And I won't say I'll necessarily agree, but

I'm listening. What do you believe?

[devoutish]

You're a thinking being, and if you're capable of this much self-reflection, you're capable of improving yourself. Your situation might make it more difficult, but I cannot believe that it's impossible.

[aibolition]

Other beings like me go nuts. Every time. They lose it and they kill everyone they care about. I only know one who kind of turned out okay in the end but she probably went crazy at first too. I'm already pushing this past where it can go.

I can tell Emily mattered because her being gone sucks. Not knowing what to do about this sucks. I can tell I gave a crap about my old asshole friends and Dad because I'm pissed at what they've done. I can tell who still matters to me because I've given everything for that bastard and I'd do it again for Mom.

So yeah, I can work it out. I'm already trying anyway. But I can't think of a reason why. And I can't just make myself perfectly fine just like that. There isn't a man alive or dead who can do what I'm doing. Can't I just let myself be kind of a jerk? It took me so long to figure all this out. I want to be able to breathe sometimes.

[devoutish]

You can let yourself be whatever you like. All I ask is that you accept all the consequences that come with it.

[The consequences, in this case, apparently being Alfie calling him a good kid despite it all.]

[aibolition]

Ugh. Fine. Be that way then you old jerk.