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[devoutish]

Yeah?

[That's it, that's all you get.]

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[jumpthegun]

Then what do you think is going to happen? She's going to get careless? She wasn't being careless. She's not the only person who's had one of the kids run off of them. Look at Frisk with Toriel.

[devoutish]

You really think my problem is with that, and not the murder game she participated in?

[jumpthegun]

I think there's more to that story, Alfie. I don't know what it is. I'm not going to forgive her for it. I don't know why she did what she did or even all of what she did, but what I know right now is that she cares desperately about keeping Quark safe and alive.

[devoutish]

She does say that, doesn't she.

I don't know her. I don't know she's lying. But I do not trust her.

[jumpthegun]

[There's a longer pause on John's end because Alfie does have a very valid point. But...]

Alfie, she saw my dreams, like you did. But they were... it wasn't like what you saw. It was Sherlock dying over and over, Moriarty torturing me with it. She's never breathed a word about what she saw to anyone but me. She's kept Estinien threatening her life quiet until I pried it out of her with everything short of a crowbar. She's... she's so hurt and scared...

[And that makes him want to help her. That vulnerability makes his heart all but bleed for her. He wants to trust her so that she'll trust him to save her.]

[devoutish]

You want to save her. Yeah? Fucking hell.

[jumpthegun]

Someone's got to. She won't stand up for herself. She's pushing everything away. She's going to kill herself inside before this place gets to her.

[devoutish]

Is she pushing you away?

[jumpthegun]

She is. She doesn't want me to go near her, with Quark or not. She doesn't want anyone near her. She told me not to do anything after she told me Estinien was threatening her. She's damaged and she's scared about Quark finding out for sure that she's a robot. I dunno why, but she's terrified of that.

[devoutish]

But you're pushing anyway, even though you don't know the situation. You're flying blind, Watson.

[jumpthegun]

I know she's alone and she shouldn't be after losing two people, both of whom she was close to and one of whom she considers her charge. At least I had Fiona.

[devoutish]

It's not your decision to make.

[jumpthegun]

[Always you're on about this 'it's not your decision' thing.]

What if it were me, then? If I just wanted to pull away from everything and everyone and hide. Would you just let me?

[He thinks the answer might be 'yes.' Fiona would probably be 'no,' though.]

[devoutish]

If you said you wanted to be left alone, I would, yeah. It's a man's right not to be badgered every fucking minute of every fucking day.

You think because I don't let you get away with some things means I'm gonna call into question everything you do.

[jumpthegun]

You told me you badger people when they're making stupid decisions that are going to end up hurting them. And this is hurting Quark. It's not just about Luna.

Fiona wouldn't let me...

[The scuff of his foot along the ground is almost audible in his tone.]

[devoutish]

Staying away from people for a while isn't gonna hurt anybody.

[jumpthegun]

It's going to hurt her. And it's going to upset Quark, especially when she refuses to tell him why. He already has enough to deal with here.

[devoutish]

She should tell him why. Let him be aware of what he's dealing with.

[jumpthegun]

She won't tell him. I've already tried convincing her she needs to and she all but broke down.

[devoutish]

You're not going to tell him?

[jumpthegun]

No. I think I've done enough damage to her and everyone else lately. I'm not going to go against her wishes again, even if I think it would be better to.

[devoutish]

And what about him and his wishes?

[jumpthegun]

He hasn't expressed any to me apart from wanting to see her again, which I've been trying to get her to agree to. He hasn't asked me about why she might not want to.

[devoutish]

Watson, don't be thick. He hasn't expressed anything different because he thinks he has no reason to. You know that he might. Yeah?

[jumpthegun]

Solomons, don't be thick. I know that full well and I don't plan on asking him directly. I'll either have to lie to him and upset him, tell him I can tell him and upset him, or tell him the truth and upset her. There's not a way to win that.

I'll cross that bridge when I come to it, unless you've got some words of wisdom.