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[devoutish]

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[devoutish]

Have you ever heard John blame someone else for something when he could possibly blame himself?

[bywolves]

No. I haven't. That's true. [ He curls closer to Alfie. ] He is frustrating.

[devoutish]

If Bucky lays a finger on Emily, I will kill him.

[bywolves]

[ Icily: ] I will help you. And I will make sure he stays dead.

[devoutish]

How are you gonna do that?

[bywolves]

I will find a way, if he hurts Emily.

[devoutish]

I do love it when you say things like that.

[He's not being glib here - he fully means it.]

[bywolves]

Mm. [ He rests his head on Alfie's shoulder. ] I know you do.

[devoutish]

Yeah.

[Pause.]

Will you tell me something?

[bywolves]

Of course.

[devoutish]

How often do you think about Timeless?

[bywolves]

[ Quiet, then: ]

Often enough that it bothers me enough to drink myself into a stupor, I suppose.

[devoutish]

[Thought so.]

Have you talked about it enough that you don't want to talk about it more?

[bywolves]

I don't know what else to talk about. [ Royce murmurs. ] I shouldn't have gone in again, after the first time.

There was so much that hurt when I was a child that I didn't want to remember.

[devoutish]

He broke my heart, that little boy.

[bywolves]

[ Long, drawn out sigh. ]

He's still in me.

[devoutish]

[Alfie wiggles his hand around until it's in a position where he can press his palm into Royce's chest.]

Then you still break my heart.

[bywolves]

[ Royce carefully rests his own on top of Alfie's, pushing his hand up a bit so it rests on the ring necklace Royce always is wearing. ]

You know - I thought. [ Royce starts, and then he tries again. ] I would've asked you to adopt me, I think. If I hadn't remembered I was an adult.

[devoutish]

I would've done it instantly.

[bywolves]

Yeah. I know. [ A beat. ] I knew you were family even then. I wanted one.

I think that's what I was looking for in Merrick, too.

[devoutish]

He didn't appreciate the one he had.

[bywolves]

[ He swallows a bit hard. Maybe Alfie can feel him do it. ]

I thought I was over what he did. And then little things like this remind me that maybe I'm not. [ He holds Alfie's hand a little more tightly. ] There's so much in me that I don't know how to unravel, Alfie.

[devoutish]

Do you wanna unravel it?

[bywolves]

I think that I should.

[devoutish]

Well. I think it's why you're so worried about something happening to me.

[He feels like he's stating the obvious, but maybe hearing it affirmed out loud will help somehow.]

You've lost enough people, and you still see it as a miracle when you find more to love. You think we're flukes, right; you don't believe you can keep finding people to care about over the course of such a long life.