But I won't leave you alone. Isolation is more punishing than anything I could do to you. [ His free hand comes up to hold at the ring around his neck. ]
[And of course that just leads to the worry that Royce will someday scheme to push him onto another traveling partner (Watson, Gabriel, Ginger) and then leave. He can clarify that later, though, if (not when, just if) Royce starts slipping back into depression again. For now, he'll just cover Royce's other hand with his own, curling both of their fingers around the ring.]
[ He's thought about it, a lot. It'd be easier to let Alfie be taken care of by someone else so Royce could crawl off and rot in a hidden corner somewhere in Norfinbury. But - he hasn't, because he doesn't think anybody could take care of Alfie the way that Royce can take care of him. Doesn't trust them to.
Royce sinks down into the blankets, not bothering to dislodge Alfie's hand. ]
Even when I couldn't remember you I couldn't kill you. [ Royce mumbles, closing his eyes. ]
Mm. [ He shifts a little more slowly, and then closes his eyes. ] Been sore before, I just wasn't expecting it now. Makes sense, I guess, after... after what happened.
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I missed this too.
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Truly?
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[Is his immediate and honest answer.]
You do; of course you do, yeah.
I know you've worried that you're a burden.
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But I won't leave you alone. Isolation is more punishing than anything I could do to you. [ His free hand comes up to hold at the ring around his neck. ]
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Lie down with me.
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Royce sinks down into the blankets, not bothering to dislodge Alfie's hand. ]
Even when I couldn't remember you I couldn't kill you. [ Royce mumbles, closing his eyes. ]
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Mm. I'm a fucking fungus that way. I'll get into your brain and you can't get rid of me.
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Sounds about right. [ A beat, and then he almost teases, in his stupid posh accent: ] Fucking ridiculous.
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Men who talk like me. [ Pshhh. ] As if your accent isn't something to make fun of. Pot making fun of the kettle.
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[ :) ]
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[But really, Royce's Cockney accent is frighteningly good by now.]
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[Alfie nudges Royce's shoulder with his.]
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cw: past torture, finger mutilation, tongue mutilation, gore
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