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[devoutish]

I have warned you.

[He says, a teasing note in his tone.]

[bywolves]

[ A laugh is surprised out of him, just a small ahah that he muffles with his hand. Another deep breath. ]

You did. You warned me. I suppose I didn't believe you when you said it was strong.

[devoutish]

Yeah, well, won't make that mistake again, will you.

[bywolves]

No, I won't. [ And he shifts, turning around to settle against Alfie's side again, resting his head against Alfie's shoulder. ]

This - this is the most... [ He pauses, and then, vaguely embarrassed: ] This is the most intimate thing I've done with a person, I think.

[devoutish]

You know-- now that I'm thinking about it, I think I'd say the same.

[He drops an arm around Royce.]

Funny world, innit.

[bywolves]

Yeah. [ It's second nature to curl into the arm around him. He closes his eyes. ] I'm glad we did.

[devoutish]

[Carefully, he sends forward just a little more emotion - the feeling of peace and contentment that he gets from sitting here with Royce.]

And the bad stuff that you shared - I won't forget that. I'll keep it in my heart, and feel it when you feel it, and help you with it as much as I can.

[bywolves]

[ He likes that. Alfie will see it in the way Royce relaxes, in the way he exhales slowly. ]

I don't know what to do to make it go away entirely, but - yes. Alright.

[devoutish]

Do you think it'll be easier when Gwen gets here?

[bywolves]

No. [ That's a bit raw. ] It'll be worse. She's human, too.

[devoutish]

Maybe she'll extend her life, eh?

[bywolves]

Maybe. [ He thinks Gwen would probably not hate that idea, honestly. ] I won't tell her what to do. And I can't change my own lifespan.

[devoutish]

You can't?

[bywolves]

I can't. [ He has to bear the burden, so to speak. Monty was probably right. He can't be selfish. ]

[devoutish]

Zephyr said that?

[bywolves]

No, I haven't asked them. [ Shift, shift. ] I have told you I'm trying to be less selfish.

[devoutish]

Yeah. But why is shortening your lifespan selfish?

[bywolves]

The idea upsets both you and Gwen. I've talked to both of you about it and you don't want me to, so I can't.

[devoutish]

No-- no, that's not true. It's your life, Royce.

[bywolves]

[ He frowns and doesn't say anything. ]

[devoutish]

Yeah. And I'm not gonna say what you do with your life is nobody else's business, because it does affect us, but--

[But in theory, they'd be dead for it, wouldn't they?]

[bywolves]

[ He frowns even more deeply. ]

It affects you, and that's why I'm saying I can't. I'd rather bear the burden of it if it means it gives you and Gwen peace of mind.

[devoutish]

It doesn't give me peace of mind to think of you being unhappy.

If Gwen wants to do it, wants to lengthen her life - well, then, that's sorted, isn't it.

[bywolves]

Yes, but...

[ He hesitates. ] You're as important as she is.

[devoutish]

[... Oh. Alfie goes quiet for a moment.]

You really don't want me saying I've been thinking about it?