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[bywolves]

Yeah. [ He murmurs. ] This is hard to deny. I don't... I don't have words for what you just gave me.

[devoutish]

But you've got the feelings, now. You don't need the words.

[bywolves]

I know, I'm agreeing with you.

[devoutish]

I know you are. I'm--

[Clarifying? He doesn't know.]

[bywolves]

[ He understands. He lets Alfie feel a bit of that understanding, and then shifts, pulling himself up and forward to sit on the edge of the chair, leaning over. He rests his head in his hands, sliding one hand up through his hair distractedly. ]

I'm - okay. I'm okay. [ He tells Alfie, because he knows it's a rough looking pose. ] I'm alright. Thinking. Sorting.

[devoutish]

[And Alfie scoots back a little more, putting some distance between them, even if it's only a few inches. He'll watch his back, letting him think in silence.]

[bywolves]

[ That helps. Royce drags in a slow, steadying breath, and his shoulders come down from around his ears. ]

Tell me what's going through your head? [ Royce asks, soft. ]

[devoutish]

Relief. Relief that this isn't going poorly, that what I showed you helped, and that it wasn't too much.

[bywolves]

It's a little much, but not too much. [ Royce tells him, closing his eyes. ] I don't think I could've comprehended how much you feel without feeling it myself.

Do - do you understand mine? The -- this. [ And he rubs at his chest, where the anxiety still lingers. ]

[devoutish]

Yeah, I do.

[He squeezes Royce's elbow.]

Would you wish it to be lessened? From me.

[bywolves]

What do you mean? [ Like an actual wish? He's unsure. ]

[devoutish]

Would you want my feelings to be less strong?

[bywolves]

No. I don't mind yours. I wasn't... I wasn't prepared. That's all.

[devoutish]

I have warned you.

[He says, a teasing note in his tone.]

[bywolves]

[ A laugh is surprised out of him, just a small ahah that he muffles with his hand. Another deep breath. ]

You did. You warned me. I suppose I didn't believe you when you said it was strong.

[devoutish]

Yeah, well, won't make that mistake again, will you.

[bywolves]

No, I won't. [ And he shifts, turning around to settle against Alfie's side again, resting his head against Alfie's shoulder. ]

This - this is the most... [ He pauses, and then, vaguely embarrassed: ] This is the most intimate thing I've done with a person, I think.

[devoutish]

You know-- now that I'm thinking about it, I think I'd say the same.

[He drops an arm around Royce.]

Funny world, innit.

[bywolves]

Yeah. [ It's second nature to curl into the arm around him. He closes his eyes. ] I'm glad we did.

[devoutish]

[Carefully, he sends forward just a little more emotion - the feeling of peace and contentment that he gets from sitting here with Royce.]

And the bad stuff that you shared - I won't forget that. I'll keep it in my heart, and feel it when you feel it, and help you with it as much as I can.

[bywolves]

[ He likes that. Alfie will see it in the way Royce relaxes, in the way he exhales slowly. ]

I don't know what to do to make it go away entirely, but - yes. Alright.

[devoutish]

Do you think it'll be easier when Gwen gets here?

[bywolves]

No. [ That's a bit raw. ] It'll be worse. She's human, too.

[devoutish]

Maybe she'll extend her life, eh?

[bywolves]

Maybe. [ He thinks Gwen would probably not hate that idea, honestly. ] I won't tell her what to do. And I can't change my own lifespan.